I'm finding music to be the least enjoyable than I ever have. As of, well, the first week, I'm keeping up and doing well, but I doubt as to whether I'll be able to keep that up.
I'm starting to take up Music classes that have me closely working or just socializing with the other Music majors... and it's amazing how intense they are about music. They LOVE it. They love all the Classical composers and attend operas and orchestral concerts and other recitals for fun. They really see themselves going somewhere with their course of study.
Put bluntly, I'm not any of that. I don't find any of that stimulating. I simply like music because I'm skilled at it. It exercises and expands my skills. I have a great ear, I can compose, I can do things for people with my knowledge of music. Culturally, it's nothing to me.
When you're in college, it's nice to learn and have new experiences, but if you don't think you're preparing yourself for the future, you're lying to yourself. I really wonder if I am, and I wonder if I should be doing something else. College-wise. I mean, I love UCSC, and I do enjoy taking classes that interest me. I don't know.
Any advice, suggestions, would be greatly appreciated.