Jeffrey Carl Faden (jeffreyatw) wrote,
Jeffrey Carl Faden
jeffreyatw

If I Go to Israel

If I go to Israel, I'm quitting the best job I've ever had.
If I go to Israel, I'm putting friendships on hold.
If I go to Israel, I'm leaving my Mom and Dad alone.
If I go to Israel, I'm putting my plans for future apartments, cars, and other possessions on hold.

If I go to Israel, I'm spending $1500 on a plane ticket.
If I go to Israel, I'm working for months with no pay.
If I go to Israel, I'm working at a job that would not benefit me in the long run.
If I go to Israel, I risk paying extravagant amounts for rent, or living in a shithole of a dorm.
If I go to Israel, I don't know how I'll get around if public transit fails me.

If I go to Israel, I will need to find things to do.
If I go to Israel, I need to make new friends.
If I go to Israel, I will need to overcome a language barrier.
If I go to Israel, I will be seen as an outsider.
If I go to Israel, everything I work toward will be temporary.

If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I know I will have to leave within a few months.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I've only seen for a few months within the past two years.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl whose family, work, and social problems have tended to bring me down.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I've learned I cannot trust.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who breaks promises.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl with the knowledge that she has cheated on me.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I once loved but can no longer say I do.

Why would I go to Israel?
Tags: bay area, blog, introspection, israel, shiranne
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