If I Go to Israel

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04 June 2008 @ 07:53 pm

If I Go to Israel

If I go to Israel, I'm quitting the best job I've ever had.
If I go to Israel, I'm putting friendships on hold.
If I go to Israel, I'm leaving my Mom and Dad alone.
If I go to Israel, I'm putting my plans for future apartments, cars, and other possessions on hold.

If I go to Israel, I'm spending $1500 on a plane ticket.
If I go to Israel, I'm working for months with no pay.
If I go to Israel, I'm working at a job that would not benefit me in the long run.
If I go to Israel, I risk paying extravagant amounts for rent, or living in a shithole of a dorm.
If I go to Israel, I don't know how I'll get around if public transit fails me.

If I go to Israel, I will need to find things to do.
If I go to Israel, I need to make new friends.
If I go to Israel, I will need to overcome a language barrier.
If I go to Israel, I will be seen as an outsider.
If I go to Israel, everything I work toward will be temporary.

If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I know I will have to leave within a few months.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I've only seen for a few months within the past two years.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl whose family, work, and social problems have tended to bring me down.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I've learned I cannot trust.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who breaks promises.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl with the knowledge that she has cheated on me.
If I go to Israel, I'm seeing a girl who I once loved but can no longer say I do.

Why would I go to Israel?

Tags: bay area, blog, introspection, israel, shiranne

Location: San Rafael, CA

Music: Boards of Canada - Julie and Candy

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big_fluffy01 on June 5th, 2008 03:20 am (UTC)

I clearly missed these developments somewhere along the road. But otherwise, it seems like you have logically concluded that there is no reason to go to Israel and a plethora of reasons NOT to go to Israel and have done so in a signature JeffreyAteTheWalrus type of fashion. Don't go. Plain and simple.

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granulac on June 5th, 2008 03:37 am (UTC)

sorry Jeffrey. :( It's for the best.

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whitenoise on June 5th, 2008 03:48 am (UTC)

Damn. Sorry, man. That's pretty rough.

Still, better that you come to this conclusion now before you make a huge mistake.

Good luck.

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 04:00 am (UTC)

(Well for the record I already bought the plane ticket but I'd be getting the majority of that back)

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piratezim on June 5th, 2008 04:13 am (UTC)

i wasn't aware you had gotten back together

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kaflurbaleen on June 5th, 2008 04:22 am (UTC)

Best job evar sounds good not to miss out on! What is your job now, anyway?

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 04:25 am (UTC)

Sole web developer at Diabetes Health

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 04:30 am (UTC)

It is a great job because I am practicing and learning so much more PHP than I've ever known and I also get to plan the future of the site and do design work and troubleshoot office stuff and solve a whole lot of problems! It's a very small company but it's a very active job. No downtime at all. A big, big to-do list of stuff I can't wait to do. Cool people. And it pays well, too!

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kaflurbaleen on June 5th, 2008 05:31 am (UTC)

Nice!
That sounds like all sorts of fun/interesting/challenging goodness!

I don't mean to be picky, but the "kids" block on the main page goes to the next line in firefox for me! Not in safari, though...

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 06:08 am (UTC)

Next line? Kids under Newsrooms? Might be missing something. (But either way it's probably not my fault as I didn't originally make the site... I just maintain and update it.)

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kaflurbaleen on June 5th, 2008 07:10 am (UTC)

Yeah, the kids newsroom linky thing. It's like it thinks there's not enough room for it so it moves itself to the next line. I bet something is sliiightly too narrow for some padding that only firefox decides to do anything with.... rar, silly cross browser compatibility issues!

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 04:04 pm (UTC)

Dang I dunno, I don't see it on Windows or Mac Firefox 2 or 3. What would be moving itself to the next line if the link is just "Kids"?

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kaflurbaleen on June 5th, 2008 06:03 pm (UTC)

The link is the whole image...?

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 06:09 pm (UTC)

Oh OH OHHHH ok

Okay I thought you were talking about the menu on the left but instead you are talking about the Kids IMAGE. Man, that garbage. That's also going away. I have noticed that elsewhere but I forget where.

That's something that can be fixed while it's still there, though. Thanks!

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night_tracker on June 5th, 2008 04:40 am (UTC)

I am usually always pro-travelling but I am seeing the drawbacks. And if things don't go well with Shiranne, you might end up feeling pretty lonely, with the language barrier only making things worse.

Could the job theoretically lead to other jobs in the area? or even in the Bay Area? Is the job going to be a good social enabler?

It seems like this is going to come down to if you want to go for your own sake. And so far, it sounds like this trip isn't 100%.

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jeffreyatw on June 5th, 2008 06:09 am (UTC)

The job could definitely lead to other jobs, but mostly as an awesome thing on my resume. The job isn't the best in terms of social opportunities mainly because it's located in Marin, where no one my age lives.

The job isn't something I want to stay at for a long time due to that fact, but right now it's perfect.

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