I'm in a weird state right now because for the first time in my life, I don't plan on the situation changing unless it changes without my doing. That is, I'm at a point where I'm out of college, out of grad school, and I don't plan on going anywhere. I'm staying in Marin until this job ends, and who knows when it will. I don't plan on moving after three months, or starting classes again, or changing my lifestyle in the future. As long as I'm working here, I'm in San Rafael, getting comfortable, and starting to develop a routine.
It's the strangest feeling. Take, for example, the car I'll be buying within the next few weeks. I'm getting a Prius with the assumption that I'll continue to live in an area that necessitates a car for a long time. Like, years. And how about my social situation? James and Paolo and Steve are still here and I'm hanging out with them now. I'm hanging out with some SF Bay goons, and they're cool too. But these are people I might be seeing on a regular basis for years. That's foreign to me.
Eventually I'm going to have to move out of my dad's house - that's one reason I'm not decorating my room to my liking, as someone who's settled down would do. I hope that that moving out coincides with my job ending (if that's within, say, a year). Otherwise, I'll probably move somewhere else in Marin and continue working at Diabetes Health. But it's not like my dad has a problem with me being around - once Lily's gone, it'll just be him and me. I'm thinking more about how my social situation would probably improve if I get my own place. If my job does end, I'll probably try finding one in San Francisco or elsewhere in the more accessible Bay Area. But there's no time limit on my current situation and who knows what things will be like when all this actually does happen.
I was eating dinner at Crepevine in SR today after coming back from the gym, sitting on the sidewalk of 4th Street, watching locals come and go. I realized, I'm a guy in his 20's who hasn't really left his hometown, but should take advantage of what it has to offer anyway. For the first time in 5 years, it's my first home. I should be partaking in the local culture and establishing myself as best as someone can in a suburban city. But I think it will take time simply because of my mindset which is so set on things being temporary.